yea. no one likes you either Bitch

2 more finals and a presentation and that’s it.

It’ll be the end of my college career.

It’s been a long 4 years but it flew by.

There’s a few things I learned over these couple of years and a few things I wish I could go back and change.

• Use your freshman year wisely. It sets the tone for the rest of your college years. A few will break out of the habit or the circle, but it is rather difficult. This is when you should meet as many new people as you can and choose carefully who you want to be with for the next 4 years or so. If you get with the studying group of people, you will naturally study too. If you put yourself around people who gossip and judge, you will eventually do the same. Also, people recommend that you do not date your freshman year. Countless number of people have told me this when I graduated high school. But…. did I listen? Of course not. But I don’t think I regret dating my freshman year. I think I learned a lot from the relationship. I don’t exactly know what but I don’t regret it. Yea, I probably could have met more people but I experienced love. deep love. It didn’t end so well at the end, but it was definitely an eye opening experience.
• Do not expect everyone to like you. Simple as that. I used to think everyone thought well of me. I used to think that people around me, at least the ones that I trusted, would stand by me through anything. But people change. People leave. I learned that the hard way. I wish I hadn’t but now I know who truly care for me.
• Hatred brings people together. People who hated each other before can become best friends over a common enemy. 
• Do not flunk out your freshman year. YOU WILL REGRET IT LATER. I didn’t fail or anything but I definitely regret NOT trying just a little bit harder. These are the EASIEST classes that you will ever encounter in college: GPA booster. Also, now that I can look back at all the classes I’ve taken, I can honestly say that they are NOT THAT IMPOSSIBLE. Yea it sure seemed like it at the time but I think we like to make our lives to be more dramatic than they really are. Organic? Pshhh. Biochemistry? Piece of cake. They are all very do-able if you just invest a few hours into them every day and don’t procrastinate. BUT who studies ahead in college, right? 
• FALL IN LOVE. Don’t just fuck around. People might say, don’t do it. you’re making the wrong choice. you’re going to regret it. it’s just a phase. but who are THEY to decide who you’re to love and not to love. It’s your life, not theirs. I had an eye-opening moment while listening to Taylor Swift’s song. “Don’t you worry your pretty mind, people throw rocks at things that shine.” This little line hit me at the heart. Those who truly cared for me didn’t leave me because I made a decision to love a boy who seemed “wrong.” They didn’t curse us. If you cared for me, you would not have said those hurtful things, judge me, backstab me (over and over again), or lie to my face. All you had to say was “I’m here for you.” Don’t date, breakup, or makeup because of what other people might say. and don’t be so close minded. You never know if that Star wars nerd or that jerk will be the love of your life and become your children’s father one day. You just never know with people.
• No one likes two-faced lying bitches. Especially if you’re fat.
• HATERS GONNA HATE. Some people really just want you to screw up just so they can laugh at your face (or more like from behind your back from farrrr away). Some people will take that first chance at stabbing you in the back, make friends with your enemies, yet smile at you and give you sweet words. Do not trust those people. Ever. You’ll be lucky if you can tell these people apart from the start, but if not, it’ll take a few hardships and dramas for you to figure out who they are. And when you bring these issues up with them, they will hide the lies and those curses they used to throw at your back and put on a “i’m the victim and i’m hurt” face. it’s all bullshit. Try not to fall for it. And even now, those same people will read this and say, “oh what a bitch.” “eff you” or something of that sort instead of realizing what kind of people they are. All I can do is hope that they learn and become at least descent.
• And this might sound oxymoron from what i’ve ranted so far, but don’t judge. It is the root of all evil in the girl world I think. I try not too but it is rather difficult. 

I do want to be friends with you.

But you keep on doing things I don’t like.

What the eff is going on on Gossip Girl?!??!